Time Time Time

Now that I am in my third decade on Earth, time seems to be speeding up. Things that happened 3 years ago feel like they were only last year. Christmases come and Christmases go. Every day its almost the same routine (only with a different outfit). Of course there are also wonderful things like my wedding and honeymoon, vacations and special or fun moments with family and friends and feelings of accomplishment.

When I was young, one year seemed to take forever to go by. Maybe I should quit my job and go to college again..I wonder if time would slow down? I am just afraid that in the blink of an eye, I will wake up and be 70. I haven't even accepted being middle aged yet! With time speeding up, everything becomes important. In your 20's, it feels as if you have years and years to think about these life changes. There is no rush, people will even tell you to "take your time, enjoy life first". But suddenly, when you are in your 30's, the decisions need to be made now. Very bad for someone who has a hard time making decisions. What if I am 40 and am still struggling with these same questions? This, coupled with the aging process, makes it even more difficult. Especially when you still feel young.

I have a great husband, step-daughter, family, friends, a stable job, fun coworkers, an apartment in a decent neighborhood...but I wish time would slow down. I want all the special moments to really last. I want to go on vacation for a week and have it feel like a month. I want actual time to think about major decisions. Maybe everything is more "rushed" as we get older. We aren't spending as much time with our friends, because most of us are married and have children and full time jobs, sometimes its hard for us to even make an appointment for ourselves because our lives are so harried. We are always rushing from one thing to the next, getting ready for work, staying late at work, making dinner, caring for kids, packing stuff up, checking emails, making phone calls, doing research...maybe time seems to be passing us by at the speed of light because we need to slow down.

*I did not mean to give off a pessimistic vibe here, this is just something that has been on my mind for awhile as I am struggling to make some changes in my own life. Hopefully by publishing this post, I will cure my "blogger's block".